for look at it, truly
what do we have?
shining gold, vibrating with life
a healthy mind and body.
surrounded by people,
funny and nice enough
to be loved.
probably plans,
a bright outlook on future.
qualities.
experiences...memories.
dreams: such a void realm.
crushed and hollow,
un-trusting, selfish and lazy.
dark like the abyss,
afraid of light and people,
yet missing faces...
a touch, a response.
ugly, sick, but longing...
such common things.
wanting to learn, to explore...
but drained and aimless.
the divine light,
casting shade on me.
I didn't want to get up today,
for I hate the waking world,
all cold and demanding.
Nothing, but the pain.
I didn't want to get up today,
for I was granted the gift
of dreaming with you,
ever safe and peaceful.
I didn't want to get up today,
there's nothing to do,
and I much prefer the abyss
to the wilderness out there.
I didn't want to get up today,
ruining that precious time,
having you in my arms,
a moment of eternity.
I do not want this ethereal world,
with its faces of ugliness
it keeps showing to me.
I only wish to be enough
to be on the other side,
in the light
with you~...
How could I not be
thinking about it...
The secrets of life
you already know.
The secrets of life
I won't come to discover.
How could I not be
thinking about how
awfully common they are...
no big deals.
Thinking why it seems
so simple from here,
but turning so hard
from over there.
The whispered kisses
in the dead of the night,
the silent wishes
shared and understood.
A contact of the eyes,
a smile...
the sparks in the air.
Reaching out only
not to find them there...
In the morning wondering
over a cup of coffee,
why did it all disappear...
Petals of roses,
silky and smooth...
the thorns, all bloody.
How could I not think
if I'm right,
evading the bruises
but the caresses as well...
or you're better off,
going through
heaven and hell.
